第四十一                                                                                                             聊，為什么不聊？”                                                                                                             李澈堅定如斯，一如磐石般不轉移。                                                                                                             我低頭沉默，這個男人就是這點不好，犟的慌！一旦犟上去的時候，十頭牛都拉不回來。                                                                                                             我并不算是很了解李澈，就像是今天下午靳騏說的那樣，我從來都不曾了解過任何人，他，甚至李澈我從來不曾深入了解過。                                                                                                             或者，我從未了解過他們。                                                                                                             “那你想聊什么？”                                                                                                             我有種想要扶額的無力感。                                                                                                             “……”                                                                                                             李澈突然之間又坑不出聲來了。                                                                                                             一會之后，他朝我招手，說話的聲調也b剛剛的時候溫柔的多了，好像火氣已經散去了。                                                                                                             “凌墨你過來?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            這一下子從地獄上升到天堂，我還真的有點不大習慣，人不自覺地往著角落里面靠了靠，這個條件反sx的動作讓李澈的臉se僵y上了幾分。                                                                                                             “凌墨，你過來?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈臉上掛著笑，也不知道是不是他想要努力做出和藹可親的笑容來，但是這種姿態一向不是他所擅長的，所以他這表情在我看來越發顯得猙獰，在這種情況下我當然不會想要坐過去靠近是他一類的，我得為自己的生命安全保駕護航。                                                                                                             終于李澈放棄了他的“和藹可親”，也不等我搖頭表示抗議了，他自己先挪動了尊駕，屈居在我所坐的單人沙發上。                                                                                                             原本這單人沙發一個人坐著的時候還覺得挺舒坦的，可李澈一坐上來之后，就覺得有點擁擠了，一擁擠之后，彼此之間的接觸也就更加多了點。                                                                                                             再加上現在天氣不算特別涼，身上衣服穿的不厚，很容易感受到彼此身上所散發出來的熱氣和溫度，那種溫暖，有點灼人。                                                                                                             李澈擠在我身邊，大概他也發現了兩個人坐在這么點位子實在太糾結了點，但是這對他g本就構不成什么影響，手臂一提，我就已經從窩在沙發上的模式演變成為坐到了他的大腿上。                                                                                                             這地理位置的轉變實在太過突然，也幸虧是在家里面，要是在公交車上出現這種位子，指不定還會上十九樓上轉悠一圈成為別人詬病的話柄呢！                                                                                                             人r靠墊其實并不算是特別的舒服，真的，還遠不如之前一個人窩在沙發上來的舒服，我總覺得咯得慌，所以這種親密的動作也不是我所擅長的，尤其是在對方的手扣著你的腰眼，只要一個用力就能勒si你。                                                                                                             “別動！”李澈輕掐了我腰上的r一把，示意我就安分地坐在他的腿上別亂動，“你的t重逐年上漲著呢！”                                                                                                             “行了吧，你就吹唄，你也沒抱過我，哪知道我年年t重上漲來著！”                                                                                                             我嗤之以鼻，他這話說的也是在太不靠譜了點，太吹了，一聽就知道是湖綠。                                                                                                             “不用抱，用目測就知道?！崩畛耗笾业氖?，“幾年前手指看上去還像是挺修長的，現在都已經r嘟嘟了的了，剁了剁了都能當豬蹄煮一鍋了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            不得不承認，相b較而言我的生活還算是安逸，安逸到現在，到處都是r，一掐一把，唯一能夠讓我感到欣慰的就剩下x圍沒有再漲上去這一點了吧。                                                                                                             聽他現在這說話的口氣像是火氣已經下去了，果然這家伙是很y晴不定的，這火氣來的快去的也快，不過也好，省得在還和我糾纏不清，吵架一類事情不是我所擅長的。                                                                                                             李澈整張臉貼在我的后背上，溫熱的呼x1讓我覺得整個背部有點癢，特別的不適應。                                                                                                             “你收拾了行李箱，是打算跑哪里去？”                                                                                                             李澈悶聲問著。                                                                                                             今晚上的反復無常，終于在這一刻得到了解答，原因就是出在這。                                                                                                             我嘆氣。                                                                                                             “回家唄，反正我還能跑哪里去?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “好端端的，g嘛要回家？”                                                                                                             李澈的聲音里頭帶了一點困惑，攬著我腰身的手微微收緊了些，這個動作對于還沒有把晚餐消化的我來說壓力很大，我拍了拍李澈的手臂，示意他如果不想勒si我的話，可以把爪子再收緊一點沒關系，頂多明天同時上報紙而已。                                                                                                             李澈很明白我所要表達的意思，他的手微微松開了一些。                                                                                                             “有點事情?！蔽液湓~，雖然不是什么大事，但是我卻不想對李澈說。                                                                                                             “要我送你回去么？”                                                                                                             “不用吧，反正也近，你也沒有那么有空不是！”                                                                                                             “……”李澈又沉默了一下，再響起的時候聲音帶了點冷然和還有無奈。                                                                                                             “阿墨，你的心真冷……”                                                                                                             李澈略微帶了點指責的話像是一個武器，不利但是依舊刺的人有些悶疼。                                                                                                             “李澈，我問你，”我深x1了一口氣，“在你心底是不是覺得我特么一個理想主義分子？”                                                                                                             “恩？”                                                                                                             李澈玩著我的手指，似乎在感受著我的手指到底是有多r感一樣，間或十指相扣，間或他用大拇指和食指按壓著我的手背，按著我的指關節。                                                                                                             “你先說說，你到底有多理想化吧！”李澈聲音里面帶了一點笑。                                                                                                             “你指哪個方面？”                                                                                                             我不恥下問，我對很多事情都帶了點理想化，一下子要我說出來不給一個具t的方向，實在太過于籠統了，還是得指明一個方向。                                                                                                             “男人?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “……”                                                                                                             這下子沉默的人變成了我，唔，一個nv人和一個男人討論關于“男人”的話題，的確有點……                                                                                                             “其實也沒有怎么樣吧，我沒有指望著一定要在寶馬車上哭泣也不要在自行車上瀟灑，條件也不需要多好，有房有車最好，要真沒有咱也不指望。按照我這種年紀，對方沒有結過婚的最好，要是結過婚的最好沒有小孩，要是有了小孩就別讓我生小孩。能一起過到老就一起過著，要是不能一起過了，好聚好散……”                                                                                                             我順口說著，這話說到后來腰上那贅r被李澈的爪子捏了一把之后底氣明顯不足。                                                                                                             “瞧你這條件低的……”李澈哼唧了兩聲，“只差沒在臉上貼著‘來者不拒’幾個字了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “年齡擺在那呢……”                                                                                                             我嘿嘿嘿地笑了幾聲，27的年紀擺在哪里，這本命年一過，從之前一年一次的問候到現在問候的b較勤快的，要是等到三十又不是事業有成的nv強人，估計就得乏人問津了。                                                                                                             “可不是，年紀擺在呢！”李澈聲里頭帶了笑，“話說這nv人越靠近三十，越沒身價。凌墨你再過這么一兩年，你估計就不是‘來者不拒’而是‘清倉甩賣’了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “……”                                                                                                             我表示無話可說，這男人說辭實在太過犀利哥，我實在招架不住。                                                                                                             “你都知道自己年紀不小了，你還跟我矯情什么？”                                                                                                             李澈微微動作了一下，讓我側對著他剛好能夠看到他的臉他的表情。                                                                                                             “這個年紀的nv人只剩下矯情了，你不知道么？總不能擺出一種像是餓了個把月見到喜洋洋的灰太狼那種如饑似渴的感覺吧！”                                                                                                             矯情啊，我也覺得特別矯情，都這把年紀了，一般x有人肯要，而且還是這么一種優質gu肯要，我居然還矯情地不要。                                                                                                             “給你點顏se你就得瑟了是吧？”李澈伸手捏著我的爪子，扣得緊緊的，“要是到了三十，我就不等你了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            唔……                                                                                                             意思是，他還會再等我三年么？！                                                                                                             我突然很想問這么一句，但是的話到嘴邊卻又變成了，“怎么，到時候隨便找個人解決終身了？”                                                                                                             我突然覺得有點心跳加快的感覺，很砰然。                                                                                                             好吧，我承認，這個悶sao的男人有時候還是挺有萌點的，沒辦法，這年頭只要是個人身上都多少會有那么一兩點的萌點，即便他是個渣男。                                                                                                             “你希望如此？”                                                                                                             李澈反問，語調森冷。                                                                                                             我起身。                                                                                                             “對了，今天靳騏來過了?！蔽彝蝗幌肫?，語氣平淡地對著李澈說，現在的我在說起靳騏的時候已經能夠平靜許多了，不會覺得x口很悶，也不會覺得心情激動。                                                                                                             “哦?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈應了一聲，語氣也很平淡。                                                                                                             這反應？！                                                                                                             “你不問問他對我說了點什么？”                                                                                                             我趴在沙發背上，看向李澈。                                                                                                             “你想說的時候自然會說的，”李澈攤手，云淡風輕，“就像是之前那樣，只要你不想說不管我說什么都是于事無補的，那我又何必多此一舉?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            唔，還真的是夠了解我的，他就算是問了，或許我也不一定會回答。                                                                                                             李澈關電腦，關機的時候xp系統發出一聲清響，同時響起的還有李澈的一句話。                                                                                                             “凌墨，我不會在一個地方等你太久，就算是迷g，也早晚會有一天找到正確的路走到出口的時候。nv人和男人不同，是有生理時鐘的，你差不多該是從你給自己設定的迷g了里面走出來了，只要你愿意?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            沒有人是誰的迷g，只在于你本身愿不愿意尋找到那一條正確的路然后走出來。                                                                                                             李澈伸手m了m我的頭發，動作一如往常一樣的輕柔。                                                                                                             第四十二章                                                                                                             我知道這個男人是在b我做出一個選擇，沒有人會一直在原地等待著誰，站的久了之后總是要挪一下窩的。                                                                                                             李澈想說的大概就是這樣。                                                                                                             昨晚的睡眠質量不是很好，像是睡著了，卻又像是沒有睡著，醒來的時候感覺眼睛很g澀，特別的不舒服。                                                                                                             這種早起還真的不是我的專利，尤其在李澈都還沒有起床上班的時候我居然就已經醒了。                                                                                                             看了一眼擺放在床頭柜上的鬧鐘，時間尚早不過七點的光景，但是外頭的天已經大亮，隱約已經見到yan光的光線，再過半小時左右大概就會yan光燦爛，直s這沒拉好窗簾的屋里面了。                                                                                                             李澈側著身子睡的很熟，看著他的睡顏我不得不承認，他長得也挺好看的，只是當年他和靳騏一起出現的時候，他的外形被更加出se的靳騏給壓了下去，就像是一朵紅玫瑰的旁邊開了一朵小小的雛菊，只有有心才會注意得到。                                                                                                             他的皮膚白皙，從放在衛生間里流理臺上的男士專用護理的東西來看，這個男人對于他那一張臉還是挺珍惜的。                                                                                                             李澈睡的很沉穩，呼x1綿長，一條手臂還被我當做枕頭來使用。                                                                                                             早上從一個男人的懷抱里面醒來，欣賞著這個男人的睡顏，然后等著天大亮，看著他起床然后上班。                                                                                                             很居家過日子的生活，這種生活，伸手像是就能觸m得到，但是能牢牢掌握在手里面么？                                                                                                             這樣的生活……                                                                                                             我閉上眼，一晚上沒睡好，眼睛酸澀不已，閉著養神，要是能睡著就更好。                                                                                                             賴了一會還是沒有半點的睡意，原本還想著要不要起床算了，但是還沒等我這條大船從床上拔出來，床頭柜上的鬧鐘倒是先響了。                                                                                                             鬧鐘沒有吵鬧多久，只不過響了兩聲之后，他就已經微微動了動，伸手按掉了鬧鐘。                                                                                                             我已經假寐著，我一向b李澈晚起，這樣b他先醒過來是第一次，剛剛他沒醒我還沒覺得那么難以面對，可是兩個人清醒地面對面從一張床上醒來。                                                                                                             算了吧，這種事情我暫時還適應不了。                                                                                                             李澈慢慢悠悠地爬起了床，從那悉悉索索的聲音里面我完全可以猜到他現在的動作一定是睡眼惺忪地抓著頭發把頭發r0u的像是一團**窩一樣的亂。                                                                                                             李澈輕手輕腳地下了床。                                                                                                             我偷偷地瞇出一條縫，無聲地打量著李澈                                                                                                             他套上襯衫，扣上紐扣，然后套上西裝k出了房間門，去了衛生間里頭洗漱。                                                                                                             我在床上翻了一個身，雖然已經醒了，但是就是不想起床，而且現在這種情況下起床的話，他肯定是會知道我剛剛是在假寐。                                                                                                             多煎熬啊，ga0的和地道戰似的。                                                                                                             外頭有著聲響傳來，不知道李澈在那邊ga0什么鬼，叮叮咚咚的不知道在ga0些什么。                                                                                                             一直折騰到了八點多之后，房間里頭又響起了腳步聲。                                                                                                             “裝睡的差不多了吧，早餐我就擺放在餐桌上，起來吃了吧?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            唔？！                                                                                                             他早就知道我在裝睡了？                                                                                                             我睜開眼看向李澈，他早就已經穿戴整齊，恩，很衣冠！                                                                                                             “你早就知道了？”                                                                                                             “我看到你睫毛在抖了，很明顯是在裝睡?！崩畛耗樕蠋Я它c笑意，“小時候誰沒裝睡過?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            果然，大家小時候都玩過這一手，真睡和假睡是在很明顯，但是這一目了然我覺得我一點成就感都沒有。                                                                                                             “我等會回家，你自己在外面吃了晚飯再回來吧，這下可沒人手被你指使著去做晚飯了啊?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我爬起來，抓了抓自己的頭發，發現自打頭發整成了卷發之后這打結的程度還真的是一次b一次高，梳理的時候也b往常要費勁。                                                                                                             “恩?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈點了點頭，從床頭柜上拿了車鑰匙。                                                                                                             “你自己注意一點吧！”他伸手拍了拍我的臉，然后出門了。