“其實現在想想，還是那個時候多輕松啊?！币酪赖难凵裰袔Я它c迷茫，“你說，如果當年我像你一樣留在這個城市或者是跟著他到他所在的城市，結果會不會就會不一樣？”                                                                                                             他，指得應該就是陳亮吧。                                                                                                             初戀總是讓人難忘的，更何況依依和陳亮還在一起了四年，其中的情感，就算是想忘，也很難真的能夠忘記得掉吧。                                                                                                             我搖頭。                                                                                                             “我也不知道?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            這種如果的事情是誰又能真正清楚的，也許這樣一來依依和陳亮能夠牽手到最后，但是也有可能會出現其他的狀況而分手。                                                                                                             “當然這也只是想想而已，我和他都已經結婚了，甚至都已經有了小孩，想這么多也沒有什么意思了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            依依笑，表情之中有點釋然但是又有點糾結。                                                                                                             我知道，那是一種萬不得已而對現實妥協的感覺，因為無望，所以也就只能夠妥協了。                                                                                                             “他現在對我也很好，千依百順的，我不應該想太多的，一個nv人能夠有這么一個丈夫已經不錯了，就像是人家說的那樣，自己喜歡的人是用來ai的，喜歡自己的人是用來嫁的?！币酪来亮舜廖业哪X門，“那么喜歡你的人，你還真不打算嫁是吧？”                                                                                                             我囧然，這個話題突然一轉，居然又跑到了我的身上來，這讓我多糾結啊。                                                                                                             “知道了知道了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我含糊著。                                                                                                             依依站起了身。                                                                                                             “我想在去其他地方看看，你是要和我一起，還是自己來？”她問我。                                                                                                             “自主參觀就行，等會不是還有飯局么？”我笑，反正溜一圈就得回教室集合，我想我還是自己來吧，我也有一個地方想要去看看來著。                                                                                                             依依也不勉強，自己先行走開了。                                                                                                             我要去的地方是在我們以前nv生宿舍樓附近，哪里有一個涼亭，在很長一段時間里面，我特別喜歡去哪里，尤其是在夜幕降臨的時候，只是每一次都會可惜杭州的天空已經被侵蝕了，極少能夠看到滿天星辰的樣子。                                                                                                             涼亭里面有石桌石凳，在那張石桌上，我曾經很不厚道地破壞了學校的公物，以壞了七八支筆的代價刻下了一句話。                                                                                                             但是現在看看，和我一樣破壞公物的人還真的是不少，石桌上面刻了很多亂七八糟的東西，什么“到此一游”或者“xxx，你怎么不去si”其中還有回答“因為我還想活”這種字跡。                                                                                                             我閉上眼，摩挲著我當年刻下那句話的地方，那上面還有印記，但是已經顯得模糊不堪了。                                                                                                             “我很想你，阿墨”                                                                                                             這是我偷偷記下的心情，用這個祭奠了我的ai情，現在想來，天真的可笑。                                                                                                             但是……                                                                                                             我慢慢地摩挲下去，在我當初刻下那句話的下面也有人刻下了一句話，我覺得自己現在這種行為還真的有點閱讀盲文的味道。                                                                                                             “我”“會”“一”“直”“在”“你”“身”“邊”                                                                                                             我睜開眼。                                                                                                             看著在我當年刻得字跡下面，有人刻了一句話，也多少有點模糊不堪了，但是依稀可以辨識，那下面寫的是“我會一直在你身邊，李澈”。                                                                                                             50                                                                                                             50、第五十章 ...                                                                                                             在看到石桌上刻的那一句話的時候，我不可能是完全無動于衷的。                                                                                                             要怎么形容我的人生呢，曾經我以為是我喜歡的人不懂我的感情，就像我不明白ai我的并且一直陪在我身邊的那個男人對我的感情一樣。                                                                                                             我不知道當時的李澈是用怎么樣的一種心態刻下這句話的，他從來沒有說過這種話，他一向不輕易地把自己的情感宣泄出來。                                                                                                             曾經在步履蹣跚行走的我身后，一直有人默默地貫徹著他的承諾，從未離開。                                                                                                             眼角之中多少有點酸澀的味道，我何德何能能夠讓一個男人如此待我。                                                                                                             口袋里面的電話響起，我有些木然地接起電話，電話是文雅打過來的，電話那一頭的聲音有點吵鬧，但是還是能夠聽得出她電話里面聲音興奮。                                                                                                             “趕緊回來，這畫面忒經典了，你要是錯過，你會后悔si的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我不知道到底是出了什么事情讓這個nv人如此的興奮。                                                                                                             等到我回到教室的時候，文雅很興奮很哈皮地拉住了我?！班?，李澈這男人實在是太萌了，你知道么？”文雅向我匯報，“剛剛江尚遠那si小子給了他一張名片，然后很洋洋得意地說自己是什么什么企業的高級主管。你家男人只說了一句話就讓那小子啞口無言了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “你男人說‘對不起，我個人認為只有經理級別以上的才算是高級主管’，當場讓那小子臉se和青菜似的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            文雅拉著我，在一角看著那兩個男人用眼神廝殺得你si我活，接著又開了口:“接著你家男人把自己的名片給了那家伙，那家伙一看，臉se糾結萬分，原本還想著在反駁一回來著，于是就問你男人是不是自己創業的。你男人說是?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “那小子就可神氣了，說年紀輕輕自己創業的基本上都是家里面有點底的，都是靠了父母才有自己現在的成就，看他那樣子似乎是富二代，如果他家里面有錢，他現在的成就一定b李澈還要來的好一類的話。李澈只用了一句話就秒殺了那家伙??！”                                                                                                             文雅揪著我的爪子，揪的特別的用力，好像剛剛把江尚遠頂的一句話都說不出來人不是李澈而是她自己一樣。                                                                                                             “你男人說，‘或者我應該為你的家境不如我，或是你的現在的成就不如我而感到抱歉’?！蔽难艑W著李澈的腔調說話，“你男人的嘴巴實在太毒了，但是毒的好萌撒……我第一次見到江尚遠那小子恨不能一頭撞si的樣子，當時有多少人在偷笑你知道么！”                                                                                                             我點頭，李澈的嘴巴毒我早就已經領教過了，但是真的是第一次覺得李澈的嘴毒是那么的可ai一件事情，萌得要si要活的。                                                                                                             我完全可以想象現在江尚遠那個男人心底到底是有多么的糾結，我想他現在一定萬分的后悔為什么要來參加這一次的同學會了。                                                                                                             李澈走了過來，看著我，文雅很識趣地走開了。                                                                                                             “聽說你剛剛很威風？”我看著李澈問著。                                                                                                             “恩，你們班上有個人很有趣?！崩畛鹤旖菐еσ?，“聽說這幾年同學會上他一直很大出風頭，你一向是被打壓的那個？”                                                                                                             這個話題一定是文雅對他說的吧，我想。                                                                                                             “報復什么的，太可恥了，”我說，報復神馬的，真的是太不厚道了，“雖然那人我很早就很想一拳打上去了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “那我去道歉？”李澈挑眉看我。                                                                                                             我搖頭，這一次的報復很大快人心，看在班級其他人都很滿意的份上，還是允許這種行徑存在的。                                                                                                             “李澈，我有話要對你說，”我深x1了一口氣，像是豁出去一樣說著。                                                                                                             “等一下，我先出去一下，等回來你再說?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈像是拍寵物一樣拍了拍我的頭，然后就想往著門口走。                                                                                                             “不行！”我拔高了聲音，我好不容易積聚起來的勇氣，要是現在不說，我等會哪有勇氣說，過了這村就沒有這店了。                                                                                                             我不g！                                                                                                             我拉著李澈的衣角，眼神堅決。                                                                                                             “我很急?！崩畛簤旱土寺曇魧ξ艺f。                                                                                                             “那我也很急！”                                                                                                             我扯衣角的力度越發的用力，不管是什么樣的急事，相b較而言還是我b較緊急一點，而且nv士優先不是么！                                                                                                             “我問你，你還愿不愿意娶我？”我認認真真地問，“我這一次很認真地回答你，只要你肯娶我，我就愿意嫁給你?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈低下頭看著我。                                                                                                             “你確定？”                                                                                                             我點頭。                                                                                                             “凌墨，我一旦結婚，基本上不會有離婚的可能出現，你想清楚再回答我?！崩畛弘p手放在我的肩膀上。                                                                                                             “對，趁著我現在很確定，你到底要不要娶我？”                                                                                                             我咬牙，反正這么多年都被他的毒舌荼毒過來了，也不怕再被多荼毒幾年了。                                                                                                             “你都已經b婚了，我能不娶么？”李澈有些無可奈何，“我向你求婚的時候你不答應，非得當著全班的面b婚才覺得有型么？”                                                                                                             呃……                                                                                                             班級里面寂靜無聲，就算當年教授在講臺上講課的時候都沒有這么寂靜過，這種寂靜讓我覺得有點頭皮發麻。                                                                                                             我縮在李澈的懷里，緊緊地巴住他的衣襟，心理面默念著剛剛b婚那貨絕對不是我絕對不是我……                                                                                                             “阿墨，你先松一下手，我想去趟洗手間?！崩畛嚎吭谖叶叺吐曊f。                                                                                                             no!                                                                                                             我si命搖頭，失去了這棵大樹姐會無所遁形，姐會被全班的目光給殺si的，這種經歷當年有過一次了，現在無需再來一次。                                                                                                             后來，我當然不敢再留在同學會上，背后被人作為談資議論反正我也聽不見，但是我可不想被人在當做猴子一樣指指點點的。                                                                                                             據說當天晚上班上群里面有人就開始八卦了，群公告甚至還改成了“同學會上凌墨彪悍b婚，為事業成功人士李某哀悼”。                                                                                                             去***那群混蛋！                                                                                                             我看著那群公告在那邊磨牙。                                                                                                             我老娘對于我終于肯嫁人的消息表示很震撼，更震撼的是我要嫁給李澈。                                                                                                             在接到李澈電話通知的那天晚上，我媽過了一會又打了電話給我。                                                                                                             她說。                                                                                                             “李澈這孩子估計是一時沖動，你得小心點他選擇反悔這條路子?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我當時的反應是……                                                                                                             我弟凌硯也很高興。                                                                                                             他說：“姐，我發現你結婚我還有個小舅子的紅包可以收，告訴我姐夫，我對此很期待?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我當時的反應還是……                                                                                                             后來我也見過靳騏兩次。一次在結婚前，一次在結婚時。                                                                                                             這個其實可以忽略不計。                                                                                                             在結婚的前一個月，我看著自己空空的右手突然想起了一件事情。                                                                                                             “李澈，戒指呢？”我問他，在我的右手上應該有戒指的存在才對，“我可不可以要求tiffany的？”                                                                                                             “我記得當時是你向我求婚的吧？”李澈看了我一眼，一點不為所動。                                                                                                             “所以？”我虛心求教。                                                                                                             “誰求婚誰給戒指，”李澈手一攤，“請送我tiffany的戒指?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “……”                                                                                                             我突然覺得我老娘的話是錯的，想要后悔的人應該是我才對。                                                                                                             “能用周大福的么？或者是老鳳祥？”我在思索了一下tiffany的價位之后，做出了一個良心建議，“咱不能太過奢侈不是？”                                                                                                             再后來，我就成了李涵的mama，很自然而然的。                                                                                                             51                                                                                                             51、番外（1） ...                                                                                                             我一直不懂為什么李澈就那么想要把孩子的名字叫做“李涵”，這個問題直到我懷上了之后才開口問了。                                                                                                             為什么要等懷上了才問呢，因為這個時候都已經成了既定事實，無可更改了。                                                                                                             于是，我m著還算是平坦的肚子問李澈。                                                                                                             “五行缺水”                                                                                                             李澈表情有點糾結。                                                                                                             “如果是五行缺水的話，那你好朋友林淼淼不是缺得厲害？”他反問我。                                                                                                             我想了想，覺得挺有道理的，于是在某一個和林淼淼見面的時候，我把李澈說的話如實和林淼淼說了。                                                                                                             林淼淼一拍桌子，“他才五行缺水呢，他全家都缺！”                                                                                                             我很蒼涼遠目了一下。                                                                                                             我肚子里面的孩子就是李澈家的一個成員。                                                                                                             最后，這話題還是不了了之了，直到小包子李涵出生的時候我才知道，這一代的孩子輪到“涵”字輩，但是李澈是李家的獨苗苗，所以小包子也可以算是獨苗苗，他覺得“涵”這個字挺好，g脆就直接取名叫“李涵”。                                                                                                             李涵未出生之前曾經遭遇了一次重大的變故，差一點我和李澈就失去了這個孩子。                                                                                                             婚后我也一度想要找一份工作，可前一份工作b較輕松的緣故，要我一直朝九晚五，我覺得夏天還能夠吃得消，要是等到冬天……                                                                                                             我想我會過分貪戀被窩的柔軟，于是婚后閑來無事的我在林淼淼的指導之下，在某個網站開始發表一些ai情小說，當然的，其中很多故事是真實的，但是更多故事是虛構的。                                                                                                             小說嘛，總是真假參半的。                                                                                                             寫了一段時間之后，我還算是有點人氣，雖然也有那么一兩個讀者和不屑，我碼字速度不快，更新速度也頂多就是一日一更，偶爾還隔日更，也真難為那些個讀者一直跟著我。                                                                                                             寫啊寫的，姐居然還覺得寫出了點成就感來，后來g脆建了群，天天和讀者交流，偶爾還會上yy玩耍一下。