47                                                                                                             47、第四十七章 ...                                                                                                             我搖頭，李澈的公司是ie業的，我一個純粹電白連重裝系統都不熟練的人去湊什么熱鬧，就算是潛規則也不能這么潛不是？                                                                                                             “不大適合，我玩不來電腦那么高端的玩意?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我對李澈說，電白不是錯，電白要去ie公司上班這就是一個錯了。                                                                                                             “總有職位是適合你的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈笑的很隱晦，他的話說得也很隱晦。                                                                                                             我突然想到他今天中午說的李涵的mama，他該不會指的就是這個職業吧？我突然像是被掐中了脖子的鴨子一樣，什么話都說不出口了。                                                                                                             “反正我想先玩一陣子再說?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我端起了杯子喝了一口焦糖瑪奇朵，犟著腦袋開口，反正這幾年工作攢下來的錢也足夠我再逍遙一陣了。                                                                                                             “你就打算讓我傻等下去了？”                                                                                                             李澈問我，語氣無奈至極。                                                                                                             “李澈，其實我一直都很想問你一件事，”我摩挲著杯緣，這個問題也一直困擾了我很久，“你真的很喜歡我？”                                                                                                             這么大的年紀問男人這種問題我都覺得有點不好意思了，我偷偷睨著李澈的臉，在想這個男人會不會臉紅起來，老實說我還是挺指望看到他出現這種表情的。                                                                                                             但是很可惜，李澈沒有表現出我想要的表情來。                                                                                                             他只是用一種很奇怪的表情反問了我一句，“不喜歡能和你攪合了那么多年？”                                                                                                             恩，這才是我不理解的時候，我一直很奇怪，他到底是什么時候喜歡我的。                                                                                                             那些年我們不算特別親密，我對他沒啥特別好的態度，而他對我也沒有什么好的口氣。                                                                                                             “怎么，打算問清楚了就和我結婚了？”                                                                                                             “……”                                                                                                             我早知道就不應該開口問了。                                                                                                             我轉開視線看向河面，河面上一條小木船搖曳而過，這個時候的天氣剛好，風吹來的時候感覺特別的舒適。                                                                                                             “我考慮一下?！蔽覍畛赫f。                                                                                                             如果真的要找一個男人結婚的話，我想，李澈也不算是一個很差勁的對象吧，請原諒我，這個時候依舊不能確定我對李澈的感情是喜歡多余感激還是其他的。                                                                                                             但是唯一肯定是，就像是李澈自己說的那樣，能和他攪合了那么多年，絕對不能說是厭惡，即便他的毒舌有時候真的讓我受不了。                                                                                                             “不急，你慢慢想?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈聲音輕柔，他都等了那么多年，他當然不急，能考慮也算是一個很不錯的長進了。                                                                                                             李澈晚飯終于放棄了和我爸一起喝酒的念頭，據他說其實我爸昨晚喝的也有點高，雖然不至于不省人事的份上。                                                                                                             “只是你爸皮膚b較黑了點，所以一時之間沒有看出來而已?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈這么對我說。                                                                                                             我爸喝高了之后也沒有特別大的惡習，只是鼾聲很牛叉。李澈在說這句話的時候表情青黑，看得出來他的確深受其擾了。                                                                                                             我拍了拍他的肩膀寬慰他，至少今天晚上他不需要再和我爸睡在一個被窩了，因為今天下午我媽把客房收拾了一下，而且還把床褥全部拿出去曬了，所以他也不需要委曲求全和我老爹一起睡了。                                                                                                             吃過了晚飯，李澈想要臨著河邊走上一圈，我是理所當然的陪客，我突然由生一種我其實是sanpei的感覺，陪吃陪聊陪逛街。                                                                                                             姐當年對寢室姐妹都沒有這么好過，除了自己主動想要逛街的時候，其余的時候基本上都是被人si磨y泡拉出去的，而現在，一天逛兩次街，這頻率高的……                                                                                                             天一黑，沿河兩岸的等就會亮起來，在夜幕的點綴之下顯得特別的好看，很多外地來的游客也喜歡在晚上的時候出沒，幾個人租個觀光旅游的小木船，在船槳的劃動的“咯吱”聲中賞玩小鎮的夜se。                                                                                                             李澈倒沒有想要坐小船，只是牽著我的手慢慢地走著，原本我還想說劃船的都是小鎮上的人，大家都那么熟了要坐也不會真的收錢。                                                                                                             我和他不是第一次這么親密地接觸，在之前有過更多次，激情的纏綿的安慰的，但是像是現在這樣不帶一點ryu的牽著我的手慢慢走還是第一次。                                                                                                             李澈的手掌心很溫暖，冬天的時候很適合取暖，我們兩個就這么慢慢地走過長長的河岸，然后在一座石橋上坐了下來，看著在燈光下同樣五彩繽紛的河水蕩出一圈一圈的漣漪。                                                                                                             石橋上不止我和李澈兩個人，還有鎮上喜歡晚上出來散個步的人，當然不可能是老夫妻一起出來的，在一起過了那么多年其實都已經彼此有點審美疲勞了，哪有老夫老妻一起行動的禮，一般x都是一個出來和老兄弟哥們ch0u兩g煙，一個出來和鄰居老姐妹嘮嗑一下家長里短，等到時間差不多了之后，各自回去。                                                                                                             喜歡一起行動的只有我們這種年輕一輩的，還暫時沒有處于審美疲勞，等到幾年之后大約也就膩了，到時候什么七年之癢啊八年之痛的估計也就全部出來了。                                                                                                             還倒不如這些個長輩們的婚姻來的長久，很多人一開始的時候并沒有多少ai，因為婚姻而在一起，后來因為子nv而在一起，到最后的時候所有的感情全部化成了親情。                                                                                                             而我，我也不知道自己以后會怎么樣，這個年代誰又能預料到會怎么辦，閃婚閃離一族層出不窮。                                                                                                             我有點恐慌，也沒有多少安全感。                                                                                                             我怕我現在一時激動答應了和李澈結婚之后，過兩年，他膩了之后，會像當初靳騏離開我一樣突然要求離開。                                                                                                             如果要說我有多ai靳騏，其實我可以很肯定地說，我已經不ai他了。                                                                                                             我ai的只是當初自己美好的想象，ai上的只是ai情而已，就算ai過，也是我青春之中的事情了，在這么多年里面，時間已經把我對靳騏的ai消磨殆盡了。                                                                                                             我只是怕。                                                                                                             靳騏是那條蛇，而李澈現在是那條井繩。                                                                                                             我不能確定有一天那無害的繩子會不會突然之間化身成為一條蛇來咬我一口。                                                                                                             被咬過的人總是想要保護自己，全方位的。                                                                                                             其實我ai自己更多一點，很自私的。                                                                                                             李澈和我在河邊坐了一會，吹了有近半小時的風，吹得我通t發涼之后他終于大發善心地宣告要擺駕回g了。                                                                                                             吹的快出鼻水的我淚眼汪汪，只差沒喊上一句謝主隆恩了。                                                                                                             李澈在小鎮上呆了兩天，他走的時候我還賴在被窩里頭睡的迷迷糊糊的。                                                                                                             “阿墨，我要回去了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            他吻醒我，抵著我的唇在那邊輕聲說。                                                                                                             “哦……”我r0u著犯困的眼睛，整個人還迷迷糊糊的，“你不喝了我弟的喜酒再走？”                                                                                                             李澈在鎮上的時候正巧遇上了我那準新郎的弟弟，我那不厚道的弟弟和打了**血一樣興奮一個勁地邀請李澈喝完他的喜酒再走，李澈也應允了。                                                                                                             離婚禮還有兩天，現在走他就不能喝喜酒了。                                                                                                             “公司還有事，我得回去一趟怕是脫不開身了，我把紅包塞你枕頭底下了，記得給他?！崩畛簉0u了r0u我的頭，叮囑著。                                                                                                             “那就不給紅包了吧?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我咕噥著，一聽到紅包就自然而然地心疼，想這幾年姐送出了多少紅包呀，一包就是好大一份。                                                                                                             “這錢就別替我省了吧，免得以后被你弟弟說我小氣?！崩畛郝曇衾镱^帶著笑，“你好好玩一陣子，但是別忘記了回家的路?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “??？”                                                                                                             “回來的時候給我帶幾個定勝糕回來，你家這邊的b較好吃?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “??？”                                                                                                             “沒事，你接著睡?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈把我按倒在床上，然后替我掖好了被角。                                                                                                             等我整個人徹底清醒的時候，李澈已經離開了。                                                                                                             我一m枕頭底下還真的有一個鼓鼓囊囊的紅包，那厚度看得我都想尖叫了，趕明兒我要是結婚的時候能收到這種紅包就賺大發了。                                                                                                             后來我這種想法徹底遭受到了我弟弟凌硯的鄙視。                                                                                                             “把紅包退回去吧，他用什么名義送??！”                                                                                                             晚上的時候我看著那絕對有一定厚度沒有一萬也有八千紅包對我弟弟說，李澈又不算我弟弟的小兄弟又不是姐妹更不是同事，沒理由送那么大。                                                                                                             “當然有名義！”凌硯白了我一眼，很理所當然地把大紅包往口袋里面塞，“我姐夫唄，給個紅包應該的！”                                                                                                             “對了姐，你記得和姐夫說一聲，你們兩個結婚的時候我可送不出那么大一個紅包，你也知道我剛買房，還是房奴，到時候意思意思給成不？”                                                                                                             凌硯眨巴著無辜的眼睛帶著期許朝著我看。                                                                                                             48                                                                                                             48、第四十八章 ...                                                                                                             其實我也沒有在家里面呆多久，找工作的事情一拖再拖，人就是這樣一旦犯懶了之后就不會再勤奮了，就像是阿凡達小毛驢也是要在前面吊著一g胡蘿卜g引它前進的。                                                                                                             但是我還必須回杭州一趟，因為一年一度的同學會又開始了。                                                                                                             想起同學會，我大概只有一個反應那就是——oh，sh1t！                                                                                                             當然我不是說同學會到底有多么多么的不好，雖然每年同學會上總是有人缺席，但是大部分人還都會忙里偷閑趕到聚會點，但是在這種同學會算是一場形式主義，大學的時候同伴情誼好的也就那么幾個，其他的人也不過就是個點頭之交，甚至還有幾個交惡的，但是每年都免不了那么一回事。                                                                                                             在這種攀b成風的同學會上，總有幾個人是要成為話題人物的，b如說誰誰誰事業有成，誰誰誰情場得意，這個時候其實所謂的同學會還真的和菜市場沒啥差別。                                                                                                             每年到了這個時候我都會頭疼，想著到底要不要去參加這同學會，但是畢竟當年同學四年，每次都會y著頭皮去了。                                                                                                             今年的主辦地點是在杭州，主辦人是班上的團支書。                                                                                                             一開始班上的人提議是去上海的，但是后來得知我們當初的校區很快就要不存在了，聽說這一屆的學生完了之后，下一屆的基本上都會去那**不生蛋鳥不拉屎據說連逛街都沒有地方的去了，而這邊的分校已經被投資商看中，說是要改建成高級住宅。                                                                                                             聽到這個消息的時候，我沉默了很久，國內造的房子難道還不嫌多么，造那么多房價又那么高g本就沒有人買的起好不好，這不是純粹的浪費么。                                                                                                             當然的，資本家們不會理解我們的想法的。                                                                                                             依依和文雅都來了，我們三個已經很久沒見了。                                                                                                             當然，我說的很久沒見當然不包括在網絡視頻上的見面，那種隔著屏幕的，總覺得看不真切。                                                                                                             她們兩個在同學會的前一天就來了，當然的我也在同學會的前一天就到了，我之前租的房子是一季一給付的，到現在還有一個月的空檔期，所以我還可以在這一室一廳的公寓里頭住一個月左右。                                                                                                             去了公寓把被褥曬的膨軟，打算晚上的時候三個人滾床單，還好雙人床夠大，足夠我們三j情的了。                                                                                                             依依和文雅都是溫州人。                                                                                                             剛上大一的那個時候全國出現了“溫州炒房團”這個名詞，那個時候在我的概念里面溫州人都是賊拉有錢，賊拉的鼻孔朝天不可一世的，擱現在那應該就是老子是溫州炒房團的后裔。                                                                                                             直到認識了這兩個人之后我才知道，原來的觀念基本上都是錯的，溫州人也不是個頂個都是有錢的，也有像是平常學生一樣偶爾會出去打打工給自己多賺點零花錢一類。                                                                                                             這兩個人下午的時候才到，她們兩個向來不放過任何可以敲詐人的機會，b如像是今天晚上，她們就要求我一定要做東，地方還是選在極其有小資情調的地方。                                                                                                             我嚴重懷疑這兩個人在婚姻生活之中遭受到了nve待，她們的老公絕對沒有滿足她們的需求，要知道吃乃人生第一大事，瞧這兩個人點了滿滿一桌的情況來看，我想她們一家人就進入解放前的生活。                                                                                                             婚姻果真是ai情的墳墓。                                                                                                             當然的，我這種論斷立馬地就被這兩個人一人一個旺旺牌斗筋卷給伺候了，在兩個人的嬉笑怒罵之中，好像我們三依舊在一起。                                                                                                             “我說阿墨，今年的同學會你可得悠著點?！蔽难藕攘艘豢诩t酒，告誡我，“還記得江尚遠不？”                                                                                                             當然記得，渣男一號么！                                                                                                             我點頭，原本是想說不記得，但是怕我這樣的回答會引來這兩個妞的不高興，會覺得我言辭之中太過于矯r0u造作。                                                                                                             對于江尚遠這人，我還是記得的，只是我已經不記得那張臉了，他有不是帥哥，不會讓我這么多年之后還會念念不忘的。                                                                                                             “提起那個江尚遠姐就覺得蛋疼……”文雅扶額，像是想起了什么讓她痛苦不堪的記憶，“不，沒蛋都覺得疼?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我覺得有點感興趣，能夠讓文雅jiejie如此黯然神傷，看起來這個男人還是有幾分能耐的?！霸趺椿厥?，趕緊說說?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我鼓動著，八卦么，哪個nv人不ai。                                                                                                             其實原因也無他，據說江尚遠此人這幾年混的還算是不錯，據說爬上了某個企業高管的地位，還傍上了那個企業的千金，從此拽的是二五八萬的，一如孔雀把尾巴翹到了天上，經常在大學那個群里面說話，開頭就是“哎呀，高管就是累啊”閉口就是“像我年紀輕輕爬到這個位子也算是不容易”。                                                                                                             我突然覺得我把那個大學群給屏蔽掉是無b正確的決定，不然天天聽這個男人吹噓的論調，我沒蛋也得疼了。                                                                                                             原本這事的確是和我沒有什么關系，但是前一陣子文雅的公司真好和他所在公司有合作項目，所以文雅悲劇地和江尚遠見了一次又一次。                                                                                                             然后，那男人有意無意地問著我的境況。                                                                                                             “阿墨現在一定是后悔了當年沒有和我在一起了吧，但是很可惜我已經有了未婚妻，這一次的同學會上她還說要和我一起去呢?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            這是那個不要臉的渣男一號最后的總結。                                                                                                             這渣男對我那森森的ai讓我萬分糾結，我覺得我平常做人也還算不上是特別的失敗的吧，怎么就招惹上了這么一個妖孽，我對我幾年前的眼光表示嚴重懷疑。